My Journey Begins . . .(Part 1)

As 2017 was approaching, I started to think about what my goals were going to be for the upcoming year.  I was married to the love of my life—and our wedding was the most perfect day.  We were living in our kickass house.  Our families were happy and healthy.  I was killing it at my career.  We were traveling a lot and seeing some amazing places in this world.  Since I had all of this goodness going on, I challenged myself to spend an entire year working on just me.  I wanted to be the very best version of myself for me, Bobby, my family and my friends. 

On January 2…I went to work!  I mean, we partied a little hard on NYE so I had to give myself a day to recover.  I started reading some amazing self improvement books.  The first one was “The Big Leap” by Gay Hendricks.  I began reading inspiring quotes on the regular.  I started meditating—not every day but definitely making it a regular practice.  I added yoga into my fitness routine.  Before my day even started, I was writing down at least 5 things I was grateful for.  I spent a lot of time reevaluating friendships (which I will most definitely get into more at a later time).  I fell in love with taking care of plants— this made us and our house so bright and happy.  Bobby and I were learning not to fill up our social calendar so we had more time for us.  I was listening to podcasts while driving instead of the radio.  I was rocking it!  I was learning so much about who I was and who I wanted to become.  

One morning in March,  I woke up with an overwhelming feeling of sadness.  Given it had rained for 10 days straight and I had not seen the sun in a while—and if you know me, you know that extended rainy days in itself will give me a case of the sads.  While I am sure the weather played a small hand in it, this feeling, on this particular morning was different.  I can remember the details so clearly.  It was really hard for me to get out of bed and that’s just not normal for me.  Bobby was getting dressed for work and I went to the kitchen to try and get my day started.  And I just began to cry.  I was sobbing.  Bobby came downstairs in a panic.  I couldn't tell him why I was crying.  I couldn't explain this feeling to him.  We ended up talking for over an hour.  He was late for work, but this took precedence for him (one of the many reasons I love this man so much).  We went back and forth about what it could possibly be.  And sitting on the counter, with the rain pouring down outside, I realized this journey of self improvement had just taken a turn to self discovery.  Just.  Like.  That. 

I knew the Universe was trying to tell me something.  Now that I had become so open to transforming myself, my self-awareness had become laser sharp.  I was now aware that there was a small piece missing in my life—there was something I needed to do.  I didn’t have a clue as to what it could be, but I knew that my next mission was to figure it out.  But how do I do that??  I had read somewhere that if the Universe is trying to tell you something, all you have to do is listen.  Although this was very new to me, I knew I had to open up even more so I could hear what it was throwing at me.  Every little thing became a possible sign.

A couple of months later, Bobby came home and said, “You have to listen to this podcast.  It’s right up your alley”.  It had become normal for us to bounce podcasts off each other.  I listened to it the following day and I found it completely fascinating.  Joe Rogan (who has a GREAT podcast, by the way) was interviewing a Life Coach named Christine Hassler.  They discussed how she got her start and how far her business had come.  I came home that day and very nonchalantly said in these exact words, “I could rock the shit out being a Life Coach.”  Bobby responded, “Hell yeah, you could.”  Then we went about our night.  The following day I did a little research.  Bobby and I chatted about the idea, but nothing too serious.  Keep in mind that I had not given any thought to the fact that the Universe might be sending this my way—yet.  

Two days passed and myself, Bobby, and our team were in Kentucky doing a distillery tour.  I was enjoying a Manhattan at the bar when my phone dinged.  It was a text from one of my best friends, Autumn.  She had been on this self discovery journey with me as my head cheerleader.  The text read, “Have you ever thought of becoming a life coach?”  I almost dropped my cocktail.  I turned the phone around to show Bobby and the look on his face was priceless.  We both couldn’t believe it.  In that moment, I smiled and thought to myself, “Okay, Universe, I hear you loud and clear.”